By nature I am an organizer and overseer, often laying the groundwork for new projects. Recently, I've had to take a major step in "releasing" projects that I've worked on for a number of years.  This endeavor has been met with resistance.  This is no surprise considering I am someone is who is wholly devoted and deeply loyal to whatever activity I am pursuing; especially if it assists another person or group.

However, having to hand over the reigns despite the best of intentions is never easy.  Suddenly I am not needed.  Questions and concerns are directed to a new leader; a position I once held. No longer am I "in the know" and at times I find myself answering with a blank stare because I don't know the answer.  I have free time that is available to me that was once filled with meetings, run-throughs, and brain storming sessions.  Mixed in there is a feeling of disappointment.  This is overwhelmingly directed toward the lack of appreciation for my efforts and the advancement of projects. Certainly, praise is not what drives my work ethic or ambition, but a genuine "Thank you" or recognition or encouragement of some sort would have been nice.  To be straightforward, there were many nights when I wondered if anyone even cared the slightest bit and times when I felt I was being used for what I could bring to the table. I often revitalized myself by remembering regardless of what people say or don't say I should only concern myself with what God says.  

So, I look at this as an opportunity for advancement.  Not only for me, but also for the new leaders in my place.  There is a time for everything and right now it's time for me to move on.