Sunday, August 31, 2008

Have I mentioned that I love being an aunt? Because I do!


My nieces and nephews make my world go round. Their laughs are contagious and their personalities are as different as each snowflake. I love spending time with them, rocking out songs, telling jokes and watching them grow up.

to harass or treat roughly with or as continual biting or tearing with the teeth*

I worry. A lot. About things that I can't even control just because it gives me something to do. For example, lately I have an ongoing inner dialogue of conversations that have yet to occur. Yes, it is good to think before you speak, but even I think this is overkill. Right now... I am worrying about work this week. I will be the lead person in the lab during a period of heavy activity. I already have everything set-up for tomorrow (of course) but I am worrying about mistakes and screw-ups that may or may not happen. I am worried that someone is going to want me to do a shipment and I won't be able to do it. I'm worried that the crap is going to hit the fan and I'll be the one that everyone looks to for an explanation. I'm worried about not being prepared enough to handle the volume of work in a short time frame. I worry because I think that if I don't then it seems like I don't care about my work. Maybe that is just what I perceive as what others think of me. (I should have taken that Behavioral Psych course in college)


* This is the first definition of worry listed in Webster's. Interesting.
** I plan on coming back to this and completing my thoughts/discussion; I'm just overwhelmed now and I drank too much sweet tea while typing this post.

It's okay to be green

Finally! I got my coffeecover today as a gift for my birthday from two friends. I couldn't wait to break it in.

Yes, it is on my sweet tea drink. What of it? This is a really great idea. Instead of using the cardboard coffee sleeves that come with your hot drink, get yourself one of these. Not only will you be reducing waste but you can wear your personality on your drink! Check out the website at www.coffeecover.net and order a few for yourself and friends. This baby is going to get a lot of use this week since I'll be living at work. For the sake of humanity Hubbards and Cravens better open on time this week.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Rach and Megs

My friend Rachel and I go back several years. Okay, all the way back to middle school art class when she asked me why I was painting polka dots on my dragon. We also went through Mrs. Murphy's "swivel" lecture in freshman English. We even shared a locker for two years and stuffed it full with peanut butter rice cakes and other munchies to chow on before the 7:15am bell.

Tonight, we went out tonight to celebrate our birthdays. Rachel was born one day before me and at the same hospital too! I'm surprised that we didn't get mixed up in the nursery. We went to Carolina Grill for a nice dinner and then we walked around the neighborhood.

Oh, and I bought my dream house!!

I'm really excited to move in over Labor Day weekend and start decorating!

*no, I didn't by this house or any other house for that matter. However, should this one ever go on the market, feel free to buy it for me :-)

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Berry Pickin'

Dad and I went berry pickin' this afternoon. We were aiming for blueberries, but evidently they are out of season. Instead we picked and ate our way through the raspberry bushes. After almost an hour of picking in the hot, hot sun we ended up with 4 quarts of fresh raspberries.

Enjoying the fruits of our labor.






Saturday, August 23, 2008

The Big Cheese came yesterday and told us who would be reallocated and who would be laid-off. All privately of course. I will be moving to "corporate" at the end of October. Before I go on let me say that I am grateful to have a job and I am thankful that there is room for me over at "corporate". So, yeah. I'm not sure of what to think of the whole situation. I've really enjoyed working in a clinical setting the past year and now I am moving to more of a "real" laboratory, sans patients. I'm sad that many of my co-workers won't be moving with me and the awkwardness that is in the air when we are together is something that I don't like much. In reality, I guess I feel that this didn't come as a surprise to me. For the past three weeks I have been pretty much at peace about this whole situation. I was okay with letting whatever happen happen, but I was prepared to lose my job and start over with a different company. Now, that isn't the case anymore. I'm looking for the pros in this new path: I have the opportunity to work closely with scientists. I will be able to learn new procedures and get a different perspective. I'll be working regular hours, no more nights and weekends or 2am calls. The cons: no more overtime, no more clinical setting, and having no clue about what I am supposed to be doing or how to do it.

I'm in between being mellow about this and not being o.k. with it. I should probably save my energy and just roll with it because I know that there is something bigger and better after this. I am supposed to learn new things and make the most of this opportunity because on the other side of the bridge is something that I was made to do, something that has been and is waiting just for me. I just wish I knew how long it is going to take to cross.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Eyes

I heard this song for the first time last night and it really struck a chord with me. Just thought I'd share it if you haven't heard or read the lyrics before. The song is called Give me your Eyes.

Looked down from a broken sky Traced out by the city lights My world from a mile high Best seat in the house tonight Touched down on the cold black tile Hold on for the sudden stop Breath in the familiar shock Of confusion and chaos Are those people going somewhere? Why have I never cared?

Chorus: Give me your eyes for just one second Give me your eyes so I can see Everything that I keep missing Give me your love for humanity Give me your arms for the broken hearted Wasn't it far beyond my reach? Give me your heart for the once forgotten Give me your eyes so I can see again again yeah yeah

Step out on a busy street See a girl and our eyes meet Does her best to smile at me To hide whats underneath Theres a man just to her right Black suit and a bright red tie Too ashamed to tell his wife Hes out of work Hes buying time Are those people going somewhere? Why have I never cared?

Chorus

I've Been there a million times A couple of million eyes Just moving past me by I swear I never thought that I was wrong Well I want a second glance So give me a second chance To see the way you see the people all alone

Chorus (x2)