Rant

Warning: Venting post. If you are looking for a post to provide comic relief or insight this isn't it. I would direct you to the blogs that are listed on my blogroll. You've been warned.

Today I felt as if I had the wind knocked out of me, or like I was holding my breath all day. The majority of it stems from the fact that my lab partner's last week is this week. We worked really well together. It was like watching a ballet; so graceful and flawless. As much friction as there was in the beginning you would have never thought we would be able to pull it off but we did. Now with him leaving I feel overwhelmed with meeting expectations and carrying more responsibility all without the support or acknowledgement of management. Add to that the text that I received, "Bad news, you need to call me." I called and it turns out that "The Big Cheese" wants his last day to be today. WTF?! Does anybody not care that we have study activity tomorrow and you just left us with 2 people, someone who can't think for themselves and a manager who has only been on the job for two weeks, has no lab experience and doesn't have a clue as to what they are suppose to do! I cannot wrap my head around the insanity of it all. I don't understand the thought process that was used and... it's like the game Pick up Sticks. All the sticks have been dumped in front of me and I have to get each one without disturbing the others. It's frickin' impossible! There is so much more too. Software, shipping, SOP's, timelines, etc. It's all been there, those aren't anything new, except now it all seems enormous.

When I came home today I changed and started running and didn't stop until I couldn't run anymore. I feel better now. Well, a little bit. I'll get through tomorrow. And the next day. hopefully each day will be a little less painful. For now, I'll go to the land of rainbows and puppy dogs and warm fuzzies.