1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
2. If you had to identify, in one word, the reason why the human race has not achieved, and never will achieve, its full potential, that word would be "meetings."
3. There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness."
4. People who want to share their religious views with you almost never want you to share yours with them.
5. You should not confuse your career with your life.
6. Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
7. Never lick a steak knife.
8. The most destructive force in the universe is gossip.
9. You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling reason why we observe daylight savings time.
10. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests that you think she's pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging from her at that moment.
11. There comes a time when you should stop expecting other people to make a big deal about your birthday. That time is age eleven.
12. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender, religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside, we ALL believe that we are above average drivers.
13. A person, who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice person. (This is very important. Pay attention. It never fails.)
14. Your friends love you anyway.
15. Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic.
FINAL Thought for the day:
Men are like a fine wine. They start out as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
I turned in my application for clinicals yesterday on my lunch break. I had the most dangerous attitude of all; indifferent. I received the rest of my uniform in the mail yesterday and a study book for pharmacology that I had ordered a few weeks ago. Honestly I can't tell if I just don't care or if I'm tired. I hope that it is the latter. Maybe some sleep and encouragement can help with that.
Today I traveled to the northwest part of the state with a friend. I mainly went for the Jamba Juice and the trip to the candy factory. It was a clear, brisk day and I had a good time meeting new friends and hanging out.
Final exams are this week. I have one on Tuesday and another on Friday. I have also been filling out scholarship applications this week. Personal statement anyone? Actually I find it easier the second time around. I imagine that is because I've had some time in the business world and know what it's really like and now I know what I really want.
I spoke with Alice today in the business office and she was very helpful in answering my questions. When I left I felt better, but then that feeling was quickly replaced by doubt and uneasiness. At best, I'll have $100 left over for books, supplies, gas, rent, food, etc. Not nearly enough and certainly not the figure I had two months ago.
What my biggest dilemma is and the thing I am wrestling with most is, do I stick it out, follow through with the current plans, muster up some faith and courage and believe that the amount I need will show up at the right time? Or, do I bow out and pray that I am able to find employment within four weeks? I don't know. And I haven't felt like God has given me any indication on what to do. To me, this is a huge decision. It's not life or death, but either decision at this point carries a lot of weight and choices. The mortal side of me says to stop. Finish this semester well. Update and send out the resumes. My heart says to wait it out. Be still. Do not worry.
I am really worried right now. I checked my ledger on my school account and the numbers didn't add up. I am weeks away from quitting my job, days away from submitting my clinical application and now I don't know if I'll have the funds for school. I am an emotional roller coaster right now; sad, afraid, kicking myself for thinking I could do something as crazy as this, and feeling completely stupid and worse of all I am beginning to question God. I thought that this is what I was supposed to do, I thought I was being obedient. All this way and now I get the rug pulled from underneath me?! A small part of me still believes that something will come through.
My process when something like this happens is to completely lose it and throw a pity party. I go from my type A characteristics and thinking it's the end of the world; "I'm going to be without a job, I'll have to withdraw from school, return the books, uniforms, cancel the order for the stethoscope, return the supplies. I am going to look like a fool to everyone. Poor Meghan, she thought she was following Gods' will for her...
Then I take a step back and look at what needs to be done. Nothing is confirmed. I can go to the business office tomorrow and talk to Alice and work through the numbers with her. If everything is kosher, then no harm, no foul. If not, I'll go to my advisor, withdraw from classes and maybe I can start clinicals with the next class. After that, I'll have to find a job or leave the country. (I'm only half kidding)
I have a limited perspective, I know. Maybe an anonymous donor will write a check for a second degree BSN student, maybe I'll find $10,000. I know that I've come to the end of what I can do which is nothing compared to what He can do.
There is no way I can study for finals in my current state. I need to mediate and get deep in the Word.I am really worried right now. I checked my ledger on my school account and the numbers didn't add up. I am weeks away from quitting my job, days away from submitting my clinical application and now I don't know if I'll have the funds for school. I am an emotional roller coaster right now; sad, afraid, kicking myself for thinking I could do something as crazy as this, and feeling completely stupid and worse of all I am beginning to question God. I thought that this is what I was supposed to do, I thought I was being obedient. All this way and now I get the rug pulled from underneath me?! A small part of me still believes that something will come through.
My process when something like this happens is to completely lose it and throw a pity party. I go from my type A characteristics and thinking it's the end of the world; "I'm going to be without a job, I'll have to withdraw from school, return the books, uniforms, cancel the order for the stethoscope, return the supplies. I am going to look like a fool to everyone. Poor Meghan, she thought she was following Gods' will for her...
Then I take a step back and look at what needs to be done. Nothing is confirmed. I can go to the business office tomorrow and talk to Alice and work through the numbers with her. If everything is kosher, then no harm, no foul. If not, I'll go to my advisor, withdraw from classes and maybe I can start clinicals with the next class. After that, I'll have to find a job or leave the country. (I'm only half kidding)
I have a limited perspective, I know. Maybe an anonymous donor will write a check for a second degree BSN student, maybe I'll find $10,000. I know that I've come to the end of what I can do which is nothing compared to what He can do.
There is no way I can study for finals in my current state. I need to mediate and get deep in the Word.
The GMH Conference was incredible! I arrived Friday afternoon, and had already missed a day of the conference because of work. However, I was still blessed by the speakers and breakout sessions. Worship on Friday night was amazing! For the first time since returning from Kenya I felt like I was permitted to just let go. For so many weeks it has seem that I keep pushing through another day, week, just to keep going, not stopping to reflect or really work through my thoughts and feelings. I had been to this conference before in 2006. Returning to this conference after being on a mission trip gave me a different perspective and appreciation then before. The entire weekend was such a huge encouragement. I scrambled to write down notes from the speakers so that I could look back on them for future inspiration.
I was fortunate enough to run into a few familiar faces while at the conference. Tom, who also was on the Kenya team was there with his wife who is a physician. They are currently trying to decide where to do long term missions. Shaun, who was a classmate of mine in college was in attendance as well. He is in medical school now and is excited at the prospect of doing medical missions. My favorite part is meeting Paula, a nurse of 30+ years. We traded stories of missions work over Chik-Fil-A. Paula was such an encouragement to me and at the end of our conversation gave me a warm hug and welcomed me into nursing as a sister. What an unexpected blessing.
Some of the speaker topics included: Following God's Will, Surrender and Obedience to Him, and an assortment of missions information and stories from Steve Saint. I am already looking forward to next years conference.
Having a great time listening to speakers and meeting new people. I'll write more about it later. This will have to do for now.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
I guess since I am up this late anyway I might as well register for spring semester classes. Registration opens at 12am. On the list are: fundamentals of nursing (+ clinic), nursing care of adult client I (+ clinic), professional role socialization II, dosage calculation, pharmacology, and pathophysiology. Yeah, that looks like good time.
